Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Not Letting Life Get Me Down

Well, this week i signed up for my third to last semester of college. How CRAZY is that?
It scares me because i am sooo overwhelmed with balancing all my papers in all my classes this semester and doing well. and living life at the same time.
I am really bad about thinking about all i have to do and freaking out instead of actually getting busy on all i have to do.
i should probably work on that.

well that is all for right now.

Friday, October 8, 2010

Like TV or not at all?

Is it just like tv shows or nothing at all?
Life that is.
For the most part real life is nothing like tv.
But there are those times that I catch myself and i feel like everyday life
is exactly like tv.
Laying here on my bed. sitting here on my mac. total tv.
Walking to class sometimes I'll catch myself and be like this is my life?
Because it's little meaningless moments that make me realize I am a person.
I know that sounds crazy, But I don't often think of myself as a person of the "real world"
whatever that even means.
The future is unknown.
and the unknown has always been my biggest fear.
So I have this weird inability to picture myself in the "real world".
I don't know what I'm going to be as an "adult".
I can't picture myself with authority and responsibility.
I don't know why.
I think this is why I love John Mayer's song No Such Thing.
---I just found out theres no such thing as the real world, just a lie you've got to rise above.

Monday, September 13, 2010

struggle and survival

Lately I have had a hard time loving myself.
I do not feel beautiful, in fact I feel ugly.
I need to work on being confident and loving of myself
because when I am, I have a good time and realize I have friends
who like being around me!
but it is a daily process of loving myself and knowing that beauty comes from within.
Letting that beauty from within shine will help me to believe that I am beautiful on the outside as well.

1 Peter 3: 3-4
3Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes.4Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.