Friday, October 8, 2010

Like TV or not at all?

Is it just like tv shows or nothing at all?
Life that is.
For the most part real life is nothing like tv.
But there are those times that I catch myself and i feel like everyday life
is exactly like tv.
Laying here on my bed. sitting here on my mac. total tv.
Walking to class sometimes I'll catch myself and be like this is my life?
Because it's little meaningless moments that make me realize I am a person.
I know that sounds crazy, But I don't often think of myself as a person of the "real world"
whatever that even means.
The future is unknown.
and the unknown has always been my biggest fear.
So I have this weird inability to picture myself in the "real world".
I don't know what I'm going to be as an "adult".
I can't picture myself with authority and responsibility.
I don't know why.
I think this is why I love John Mayer's song No Such Thing.
---I just found out theres no such thing as the real world, just a lie you've got to rise above.