Happy, Free, Confused, and Lonely at the same time. - Oh T. Swift How you capture my life in your lyrics. This is a lyric from her new song “22”. The song is not very deep and is pretty much a party anthem dedicated to Taylor’s best friends. BUT- it is still very relatable and super-catchy.
HAPPY- I am generally a pretty happy person. So even though I have been struggling lately with this post-college life, I still overall would describe me as happy. Even though there have been a lot of days where I have definitely not been happy, I try not to focus on those. I AM happy I graduated college and I am happy that God has a purpose for my life, even if I have no idea the specifics right now.
FREE- For the first time in my life, I do not have school tying me down. As stressful as not having a job and feeling lost in my search for one is, I should try and embrace this unique time of my life where I am FREE.
CONFUSED- I am confused with life right now. I don’t know what my next step should be. I try to zone out because my thoughts are everywhere and I stress myself out otherwise. I am confused at the fact that I don’t have a plan right now. I never really thought about what would happen if I didn’t have things figured out after college. Sometimes I just want to turn back time, but I know that 1) that’s impossible and 2) I need to embrace this next chapter even if I am confused and scared and stressed about making a move, not having a job or a plan for what comes next.
LONELY- I am Lonely. I am an only child, living at home again after graduating college. I lived by myself for most of college but there was always lots of people right nearby. My best friend doesn’t live close-by (and she has a next chapter). I miss having lots of people all around.
I understand how it is to be all of these things at the same time but I am going to work damn hard to focus on the HAPPY!
In her liner notes, Taylor dedicates "22" to ASHLEY, DIANNA, CLAIRE and SELENA
Top Left- Selena Gomez, T. Swift and Ashley Greene
Top Right- T.Swift and Dianna Agron
Bottom Left- Claire Callaway and T. Swift Bottom Right- T.Swift and Selena Gomez.
Seriously I couldn't agree more with this post. That line really spoke to me too, even if I am 23 :) (Minor detail...) I feel like pretty much every single day, I have moments of feeling happy, free, confused AND lonely. Every. Single. Day.
ReplyDeleteBut like you said, even though there is such a wide variety of emotions going through my head at most times, I'm going to try and embrace this. I know that there will be plenty of days that I look back on my 20s (especially my early 20s!) as the glory days. I want to spend this time really diving into Christ, and having Him help me learn how to deal with the confusion and the lonely, while embracing the happy and the free!!