This I know for sure...

So I've reached a time in my life where I need to answer that big question. you know the one every kid is asked all the damn time. What do you want to be when you grow up? Well that has now turned into What are you doing after graduation? and that question is less imaginative and more wanting an actual answer. 

I don't know. I am looking to go into College Athletics and I'm looking specifically at Sports Information and Marketing Jobs. I am also open to sportswriting jobs. I don't know. Some days I am very confident that I want to go into College Athletics but then other days I second guess myself. It's a big decision and I want to get it right. So while thinking about this a week or so ago, I had a thought that has stuck with me. I want to be a mom.  Obviously, not right now as I'm not in a relationship. While I sometimes question what I want to do career-wise, I know without a doubt that I want to be a mother. 

I've always known that I wanted to be a mother one day, so I was a bit confused as to why this seemed to be a revelation. I think that this thought stuck with me, because I think I am a lot less career-oriented than I thought. I know (as well as someone who hasn't experienced motherhood can) that motherhood is difficult but I also know that it will be rewarding. Growing up I spent countless hours thinking of baby names (still do).  I dream of the day where I find out I'm pregnant, and the day I hold my first-child. 

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tonight history was made. I was geared up for tonights game all day and so hyped up by game time. I will admit I was a little nervous. Michigan State is a good team. While I usually would be frustrated that we let a 20 point second half lead slip to a 5 point win, this time its fine by me. It was called the State Farm Champions Classic for a reason, Michigan State battled till the very end and I respect that. But in the end, we ( yes, I refer to Duke as we, as a life-long fan I am part of the Blue Devil Nation) came out on top. And Coach K, who was already one of the greatest coaches of all time, became the all time winningest coach in DI Men's Basketball. And he did so by passing his coach and mentor Bobby Knight.

Coach K and Bobby Knight after the game

restlessness

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    so it's 8:07 on a sunday night and I get this feeling, one that i get fairly often. This feeling is one of the day coming to an end and feeling that i didn't do anything. Don't get me wrong, I love a good lazy day, but sometimes i just get this overwhelming feeling of having to do something before the day ends. It's a sort of restlessness I get and I'm not entirely sure why. It's one day ending and another day about to begin. I'm pretty sure my restlessness has to do with time passing and having no sense of what the future will bring. I am getting through my stress and worry over what lies ahead through simply breathing in and out. I am super excited about Thanksgiving, it is one of my favorite holidays, but then I can't help but think about the fact that when we come back to school we have a week before finals. The end of the semester and finals always brings heightened stress, so i have that to look forward to. And then I will only have a semester left of college, which is super bittersweet and scary. So what am I gonna do to be productive and ease my restlessness about the inevitable passing of time? Well, I'm blogging. But to end this post I'm listing some things that I have to look forward to that make me
smile : )

Time Flies- Even with that extra hour

1. Umm where has the year gone? I have the feeling that time really does fly by quite often. This year though, it's different as with it being senior year there's only so much time till graduation... Wha? Crazy

2. This is kinda along the lines of number 1. So Daylight Savings Time started this weekend d we got an extra hour, but i really don't feel like I did. I got to sleep in, which is rare, but when I woke up Sunday morning, my phone had changed automatically. So although I still got the extra hour I wanted to think it was such and such time and be like "ooh I get to fall back" and go back to sleep for an hour". Silly but makes sense in my mind!

And now I'm busy

Now I'm busy. While many of my friends seem to have their workload spread out evenly across the semester. I for some reason tend to have everything hit all in the last half of the semester. This for whatever the reason may be has been the norm for me the past year and a half. I suppose it is a good thing I say that I do best when I am busy.

Blogging For Real

I am trying to start blogging for real. I have had this blog of mine for over a year but this is only my 28th post. can we say fail? you can agree, you should. Although there aren't really any you out there to speak of yet since I have failed so greatly at blogging for real.

But there are some positives to this post. and they begin NOW.